I cant write a long tribute to Carolyn's life as we lived far away from each other for most of my life, but I know she loved me. There are photos of her holding me as a baby. There are photos of her visiting Ottawa, there are photos of her at my wedding with her children.
Now I am an aunt with six nieces and nephews who live far away, so I know how she must have followed my life from afar, getting pleasure from good news about me and worrying about my struggles.
I have a specially blessed life because I have a lot of people who love me in this way. I exist in a supportive webbing of threads of strength made up of love for me. Everyone on earth has the same strong rope consisting of the love of God, but many people are sort of hanging by that thread.
I don't know why I and my family qualify for such luck, but WE all exist in an expansive woven web of threads.
When I found out that Carolyn was gone from this life, I felt the sadness of empathy for those whose lives she was in more often, but I also felt something I didn't expect. I felt the change in my web as a person who loved me crossed from this life into the next.
Another special blessing in our family is the blessing of eternal families. My grandparents and parents, siblings, aunts, uncles, many cousins, are sealed together so that when one of us crosses over, the threads in our webs are not broken. The ends of the threads are anchored in Eternity so they can never break.
No matter how old I get and how many of the people who love me disappear from the world, I (and everyone in my family) will always have an intact web. That is a state of existence so remarkable that it's almost like heaven already if you think about it.
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